myRainbow.
So much has change.
We’ve grown up, grown together, and grown apart.
I know I haven’t been the greatest friend in trying to preserve or restore our friendship and if I never get the chance to gain back the close bond we once had, I want you all to know something.
Red - Vitality, Confidence, Intensity
I know I haven’t been there for you through everything you’ve endured and I’m so sorry. We had it rough for too long. Our friendship was rocky growing up, but that’s passed now and I’m so grateful that we survived through it. I know that I can truly trust you and confide literally anything in you! And just know that you can trust me with everything, and anything. Thank you for tolerating me and my fluctuating attitudes and personalities. But what I’m ever thankful for is that you have not given up on me and our friendship… Throughout everything in my life - from the boyfriends, the drama, and the parentals - I could always lean on you for comfort, advice and an alibi. HAHA! I’m kidding.. ;) I love you for all that! Now hurry up and come back cause I miss you!
Orange - Uniqueness, Creativity, Enthusiasm
You’ve seen me at my utmost best and at my severe worst… but you still stuck by me. Thank you. I needed someone like you growing up. You’re upfront with me, no sugar coatings on your perspective and I really appreciate that. I should have been more upfront with you though… I’m sorry for being so shady and drawing myself away from you … especially you, cause growing up, we were so close and open with one another. I’m sorry for jeopardizing our friendship and weakening the trust between us. I’m sorry for being a horrible friend. And I’m sorry that I wasn’t honest about things from the start. But I really need you. I value you so much in my life. I could not have survived first year college without you! Oh the crazy things we’ve experienced together. Infinite and priceless. I ran to you for food, for clothing, for shelter, for opinions, for advice, for support, for everything!! And you were there all those times. Thank you with all my heart and soul. I love you and I really miss our tightness.
Yellow - Happiness, Bright, Sunshine&Smiles
I miss you. A lot.
And you deserve more than this paragraph cause these few words cant captivate everything I want to say to you. I’m sorry for pulling away from you. That wasn’t the way to go and I feel really guilty for withdrawing myself from you. I have missed you in my life and I can’t apologize enough for how I’ve acted towards you. All I can ask of you is to not lose hope on our friendship. I can’t lose my friendship with you cause you matter so much to me. I’m sorry for causing a strain between us. A few weeks ago, you sent me a text that left me speechless. Thank you for understanding that there is something happening in my life that’s been hard on me. Even after my bad ways of a friend, you still could text me that and I’ll admit… it made me SO happy to hear from you. You could see past my façade and notice something troubling me. And you gave me my space. I love you for understanding. Oh I have missed you incredibly! So I hope you give me the chance to come clean with everything. I have so much to be sorry for and so much to tell you. I miss everything we once were and once had. I really do and I can’t emphasize that enough.
Green - Lively, Natural, Realistic
I feel so distant from you now… I wish my connection was stronger with you. I miss our inside joke discussions about "ball". Hahaha! If only I could get back to that then maybe we could have gotten much closer. I know we rarely talk or see each other, but to be honest, whenever I get the chance to see you, it makes me feel so good when you say Hi to me. I guess it’s cause even though we’re not as close, just knowing you still consider me as one of your friends is enough for me. I really do wanna gain a closer friendship with you. I guess it was easier back then when we had "ball" in common. LOL! But I really hope that this summer, somehow and someway we can hang out more. I miss you! And I love you =)
Blue - Trust, Tranquility, Sympathy
Just knowing I’m not alone through all this is more than I can thank you for. When I confided in you, I felt so relieved that you didn’t judge me but rather, you made me feel eased about the whole thing. And now I completely empathize with you cause we’re on the same page. It’s so ironic. Before, we experienced the same things and you came to me for help… and now here we are again going through the same thing and it’s me running to you for comfort. Thank you for not abandoning me. One day we’ll get what we’ve been praying for. I didn’t realize how difficult it was to "convince." LOL! Oh thank you for totally understanding me. I have to fill you in with everything! Sorry for still not sending you a message. Haha. We’ll make a date out of it so we can catch up. I love you! I’m not alone, and you’re not alone. We’ve got each other through this.
Indigo - Mediation, Intuition, Depth
Where do I begin to even express my gratitude for you?! Through EVERYTHING, you sought me through it all. I’ve grown so close to you that I’m able to confided my deepest secrets in you and have nothing to fear. When I admitted the truth to you, you were straight up with me, but at the same time, you were supportive and so trustworthy. I love you SO MUCH! You never let me down. I share so much with you. You’re an incredible friend I actually don’t even know what to say to you! Just… Thank you!! Snow boarding days, epic van rides, and Red Robin extravaganzas - you were there by my side. (Or in front behind a menu. Haha!!) I love how our friendship has grown stronger over the years. We’ve came this far, and I know I couldn’t have survived through my heartaches without you. Thank you for literally everything. I love you so much!!
Violet - Mystery, Power, Respect
I owe you more than an explanation and apology… I don’t even know where to begin. I want to make amends with you… I really am sorry. There’s this guilt in me that has to do with you. And it’s apparent what it is. I miss you so much cause you’re so far away, but the way I’ve been acting has just put more distance between us. So much has happened, so much has changed. But last night, I realized that you hadn’t give up on me. I cried when I read your text. It broke me down cause despite what has happened, you came to me with affection and concern. I love you deeply. Yes, we go way back and it feels so great to know that you’re still by my side. That means the world to me; It really does. I love you for looking past my faults and accepting me as I am. I have tons to explain and clarify… thank you for opening yourself to me. I just can’t iterate my overwhelming happiness of knowing you’re still here as a friend that'll listen. I love you so much! Thank you!!
To you 7, the 7 most important ladies who have significantly impacted my life: I love you all.
I miss Core.
And I really do mean that.
